I never knew how insecurity felt like.

I had always lived a bless life.
Primary school days, i had my grandmother.
Secondary school days, i had you girls.
Poly days, still you girls.
Till now, its still the girls and my family.
However, in recent history, you made contributions to my well led life.

The life that you had path for me since the first day we met, felt ever so protected.
But, these all changed within a night.
I reaslied that the walls had came down, crashing so hard on me that i felt breathless.
How much have you actually changed?
How much am i suppose to change?
I lost the original self, in this whole incident.

Faith.
The original me, would have lost it all.
Because of you, i am atill willing to give it my all.
Again, how much are you willing to give?

Indeed, certain event carries a heavier cost than me.
Understanding is indeed essential.
Nevertheless, am i that un-worthy?
I would have made a fuss in the past, now i have changed yet again for you.
Why?

It still does not occur to you, how much it hurts?
That statement.
It just seems like a breeze to you, doesn't it?
I am afraid.

At the end of the day, i will still put you above anything else.



I am in love, am i ?