Everytime when i read "the" post.
I feel real disgusted.
How did you see me when ya blogging at that moment?
Will history repeats itself on such occasions?

Read previous posts.
Possible to move on so fast?
Suspicious.
Especially i know well, what you haf gone thru.

Are we heading towards the right direction?
When we return, will things still be the same?

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My heart skipped a beat.
I can feel your agony and frustrations.
Its so you.

Nothing much can change the facts.
Just be careful.
Seat belts please.

Do i still understand you?

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One more week to my official date.
I am the least excited about it.
If i had the plans. Hmmm.
I guess i will never feel the same as the last 20 years.
Perhaps it could be the worse.

21st October.
The 3rd year.
Why did you choose this very day?
You know i love you dearly, so why make this day my agony?
Or its your way to show me, your love.
I believe it is.

I miss you so much.
Just the thought of you, i seem to be unable to control my own emo.
Your face still remain so clear in me.
I tried to cook the fav dish but it was far far different from the one you prepared.
That day, 3 yrs ago, i still remember.
How the news was told.
The shivers, the breakdown.
I really miss you.

I really regret.
Regret not seeing you the last time.
Why was i not told of the truth, the conditions.
If i knew, i will be there for you every moment.
I really miss you.

Your death represents my birth.






"Po-po"