Why?

Why the choice of SYDNEY instead of Singapore?
I missed all so much but yet i still chose here tho the option of heading back was possible.
I did my maths.
On my account. Tho what i spent heading back may be the same as here.
But. when i add all the amounts you all sponsored...
the value comparison differs drastically.
Not only that.
I really feel bad about it.
Those amounts aren's small at all.
Especially for some of you. *students.*
At the end of the day, impractical was my conclusion.

I really love you guys a lot.
Rui- ha. Biggest sponsor! (What to do, since ya my best bud!)
Cindy - Muackz! What can i do without you.
Esther - Ya not working, yet... We have so much to catch up when i get back.
Jing - Thanks for ya advices.
Aubrey - Hm. Ya no longer responsible for anything but yet. Thanks!
Ghim - Ha ya surprised me the most! Thanks!

PERHAPS. i shall fulfill my dream when i get back.
Belated?
Or maybe i will use "gathering" as an excuse.
Nevertheless. I still expect presents from the people above!
Savings from air tixs can be channeled to other areas.
Ha.
I will post my birthday wish list up soon.

For now. i really need to plan about my party here.
I really hope that everyone will turn up.
Hope that things will run smoothly.
COSTUME PARTY?


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Joel arrived.
We were so silly.
We waited at the wrong arrival gate.
He was unable to contact me.
Therefore, miscommunication caused us 45 mins of waiting.
Silly.

Casino.
The guys were depressed during the first hr.
Lost pretty a bit.
But!
While i was playing the boring slot machines.
Two of them managed to locate the "perfect" blackjack table.
Fro there.
Everyone recouped their losses.
On top of that, there were gains too.
Happie for them. :)

So much more activities to look forward to.

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Yst.
I was told of the distance.
I felt it too.
But.
Instead of feeling happie about the distance, i felt real bad.
Regardless of what we should be.
Distance should not be present.
We had so much in memories.
Will we just be in such distance that all memories hold no meanings anymore?

What builds the distance?
How many times haf i tried to include your presence.
But.
Whats the answer i always get?
Where do you contribute to the distance? i wonder.
Arghz.

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You.
Ya always living in ya own world when his around.
Its like as tho. everything that we built seemed insignificant.
Its been not once, not twice, but a numerous of times.
I understand what ya going through.
But it does not mean that you should ignore how i feel.
We talked about it before.
But i guess you did not take it seriously enough.
I realised that anger was the not word but disappointment is.
Just cross my fingers and hope that things will get better....
Once ya settled esp.

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O ya. Just to mention.
I totally screwed up one of my mid sem paper.
Fuck it.






Will it be successful?